Hello, 2020! It’s Time!

How did you bring in 2020? Did you go out to a party with friends or spend a quiet night at home? Perhaps you’re asleep right now. After all, I am writing this at nearly 2 o’ clock in the morning. Me? I spent it watching American Dad and texting with my best friend. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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With all of the end-of-decade reviews, I was reminded of where I was ten years ago. I remind myself every year. I call it my “kick in the butt” story.  January 1, 2010 I rang in the New Year at a Roger Cline and the Peacemakers concert. I worked at the Celebrity Theatre at the time. I had barely eaten all day, was buzzing on coffee, and had one of the most upbeat nights up to that point. That was the night I decided it was time to take chances.

I had been going back and forth in my head on if I wanted to be a writer. That night, among all of the guests that I knew, I was especially excited to see Jim. Jim, the Celebrity’s former stage manager. Jim, who had been taken off life support nine months earlier and was walking through my club doors. I gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek and told him that guests had come by and thought he had died. “I heard that rumour,” he said. “I was worried.”

Instead of wishing me a Happy New Year that night, he said the one sentence I remember every time I need to motivate myself: “May your dreams come true this year.” That was the moment I knew I was quitting my job and became a writer.

I had finished telling this story to a co-worker, last week,  when a sweet lady from another department brought treats and a card.  Inscribed inside: “May your Christmas dreams come true.”

That’s when I knew. I knew that despite taking a break from professional writing for the last year to regain my peace of mind, It’s time. It’s time to make Dreams into Goals into Reality.  It’s Time, 2020!

Happy New Year!! Happy New Decade!!

New Year.Old Anxiety.

 

The last two weeks have been filled with constant anxiety. I can’t blame the holidays, because there is very little that is Christmasy in Phoenix.

I wish I could place it, but I can’t figure out exactly what is wrong. I go outside and have to remind myself that I’m fine and I’m safe.

The hardest part of this anxiety is how difficult it is on my closest friends, who try to be well meaning and try to empathize, only to get frustrated and give me even more space.

I miss feeling Christmas. Right now, I’m trying to think of ways to improve myself and form new habits over the next 100 days in hopes that 365  days really from now, I  can enjoy the holidays and this will all be only a memory of the dark night of the soul.

 

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Goals and Visions: Regeneration

 

If you’re a Doctor Who fan,  you know  when the Doctor regenerates, the experience is  followed by regeneration sickness. This is the way I feel now. I am shedding all past lessons and can feel aspects of  my future self yearning to be born into the world.  It’s uncomfortable, gross, depressing, challenging, amazing, and beautiful.  Despite the holiday, I am trying to make for as much down time as possible, plan for the next part of my life Now and not just at the moment the calendar tells me it’s a different year and decade.

“The Doctor is all of us, he lives and dies as all of us, and we need him to – because no matter the anvil-imagery of the Doctor as Christ, this is actually a far older and far simpler story than that. Everything changes. We all regenerate. I am not the same woman who first saw Rose ascend. Years go by and I become someone new, with the same memories but a new face, a new self.”
― Catherine Valenti

In the next few weeks, we will be reminded that it’s a New Decade and a New Year. There will be talk about becoming the New You, resolutions, and so on. We’ll consider our goals and if we are comfortable where our lives are now or if we want more. There is no wrong answer or approach to being the best version of who you are.  But, no one should go through daily life challenges completely alone.

For me, new goals and new thoughts start now. Not half a month from now. I am embracing Hygge and spending more time on my Pinterest, as I try to learn new things. This begins with my attempt to minimize, while also hitting my half price days at Goodwill, because I am ridding myself of an old style and setting things up for my future self.

 

This year, we will focus on Monthly themes. Right now, it’s the set-up. Thinking and our Visions and Goals?

  • What have you accomplished in the last year or six that you never though would be possible?
  • What do you want to be doing one year from now?
  • What small steps can you take in the next few weeks?

This can be as simple as de-cluttering or reading a new book weekly. Don’t overwhelm yourself. In today’s world, the most important things are Focus and Self Care.

Write about your goals, motivations that have worked for you, challenges, and themes you want to see. I will also be posting more on The Being Artemis Project Facebook,  so be sure to Follow.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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